you'll be okay, i promise.

Well, its 2am and Nenek has finally drifted off to sleep- thanks to her sleeping pills. Boy I wish I could chow down a couple of those too. Shes better today than she was yesterday and a few days ago when she was in the Emergency room.

Nenek is in the hospital for DVT which is a fancy name for blood clot in the legs. She was admitted a few days back when Ina saw her right leg swelling and diagnosed it as DVT. DVT is serious because if left untreated it could cut her air supply to the lungs somehow. Nenek had to be hospitalized immediately, much to her dismay. The day she got admitted, the hospital was full. There were no rooms left for Nenek so they had to put her up in the emergency room which was a terribly bad idea. Nenek became restless and stressed. She started hallucinating and seeing things. It was scary but Ina said it was just due to stress. I think if I were Nenek, I would be super stressed too. That night, on her right, there was a lady with a very very bloated stomach. So bloated that she looked like she was about to burst. On her left side, there was a lady shivering like mad. I told you it was scary.

Yesterday they moved her to a medical ward which was much better. Nenek became better too though she still doesn't like it here. I spent the past three hours trying to calm her down since lights out. Shes afraid of the dark you see and wants to go home. She keeps telling me shes scared and she sees things and she wants me to take her upstairs. I'd been trying to calm her down and tell her that there is no upstairs and that shes in a hospital. I felt so sorry for her. If I could climb onto the bed and sleep next and hug to her like I used to when I was younger just to calm her down, I would. But I can't. It's a good thing though shes asleep now. She kept calling out every bodies names to take her 'upstairs.' I'm waiting for Mum to come watch her now. Were switching places. I get to sleep in Ina's room for a while before we go back tomorrow morning. Poor Mum. When Abah was in the Hospital she had to drive there every night, most nights alone, to take care of him and then rush back to get ready for work. Now Nenek is in the Hospital. She barely sleeps and she has lectures tomorrow at 8am. She's such a hero.

I myself am too tired to go back to campus tomorrow. I've only just finished analyzing my data. I have no idea what to do with it now. I'm tired and I want to go sleep. Chapter 4 in one day? Pfft. Yeah right. I guess I won't be dropping off my chapter tomorrow the but never mind. Vinn cancelled following me cz shes sick. I hope she gets better so maybe maybe if I'm really done with Chapter 4 by this Friday I can go drop it off at the pigeon hole.

Well, please pray Nenek gets better soon. And pray she gets discharged real soon. The thought that she's gonna have to be there for another week makes me worry real bad. School is starting in a few days :(


get well soon nenek, i love you.