from the ashes.

Hello,

I'm back. But just for a short while. I'm back for the weekends and will be back there by tomorrow afternoon. bummer :(

We're just going into the 8th week next week. That's like half-way there, or maybe less since during the 14th week the kids will be having their exams. I do wanna get it over and done with really quick since I'm dead tired, worn out, and super stressed, plus the thing about not 'socializing' enough is just getting to me. I get it that's it's important. I get all the fitting in, blending in crap and all but besides being super shy, it's also super awkward for me to be trying to include myself in conversations about things that I have no freaking idea about. Sometimes I feel like an idiot when I don't try because I'll just be sitting there like a statue- an awkward one- but then I'll feel even more of an idiot when I do try and everything comes out wrong and weird. It's even more depressing to think that my one and only friend who I can really have casual, relaxing conversations with (besides my partner) will be leaving next week. Shes getting posted someplace else and that makes me really sad. I think though the one thing I'll miss most about this school is the kids. Well, my kids. Those cute, innocent faces of my Form 1 students and my super rowdy though super awesome Form 2 students. I'll be missing them much.

About term paper, well, I'm seriously considering extending- if we still get to grad this year that is. My lecturer has forbidden me to extend but I really do not want to send in last minute work. I want to be able to do my best because since there'll be no time for me to go back to repeat any papers to fix my grades, my term paper and practicum will be the determinant for my ever unpredictable CGPA.

Oh, Hidayah's bird Ollie has flown out the window. It's now gone forever. But this morning, Abah went to the bust station to wait for a bus from Terengganu that was carrying Ollies replacement (how quick no?). We have no names for it yet but Hidayahs thinking of naming him Fawkes, after the Dumbledoors' Phoenix since this new bird is like Ollie, reborn but I think Abah will end up calling him Jack again for some reason. -__-"

So anyway, too tired to talk about anything else right now. Gotto go sleep now. Nite people.