it's a hard knock life, for me.

Today I sent my proposal. Dropped it off at her door pocket. Fingers crossed .

Class was quite dull today. Ede wasn't there cz she had to go balik kampung with her sister that morning and Ika came late so when Mr. Saddas told us to get into our groups and start formulating our interview questions, I was practically alone. But I made a new friend today, her name is Wani. She didn't have a group so she asked if she could join ours. She seems really nice. Shes repeating this subject and taking her Term Paper again. I think she's from Ayie's batch.

After class, I went to teman Kak Shida send in her proposal but since Alya was sending in hers too, they went together and I stayed in the car with Puteri (Alya's sister remember). We got bored so we started fooling around. We started a tickle fight and played with Kak Shidas' stuffed ladybugs in the car. And when we made the ladybugs have tickle fights, I didn't notice they had come back. When they got in the car, Alya said, "macam ni awak kata matang?" and she and Kak Shida started laughing. Kak Shida said, when she went to drop off her proposal, Madam was in so she just handed it in to her. They had a little chat and Madam said she specifically requested us to our HOP because she wanted 'matang' students, not 'budak-budak.' Ok, that makes me feel reaaaaaaly old okay. But errr, the ladybug tickling scene just now, kinda justifies how un-matang I really am. Oh dear.

And so, with sending in my proposal, I think the hectic life of unihell has oficially started. Term paper, sssignments, tests, presentations, 5-day practicum briefing, and finally the finals. Then its time to get prepped for practicum. Oh boy. I do not do very well under pressure. I do not do very well at all. But I think I'm gonna give a shot at staying positive for a change. Being all scared and feeling unprepared won't help me get through this. Sure I'll come out with a few cuts and grazes, but staying positive will make them hurt less. So, every time somethings seems be going sucky for me, I'll just say to myself:

in all things, it is better to hope than to despair.