there is never enough time. we need more time.

Last Friday we had our practicum course but honestly, I'm not prepared at all. Maybe that has something to do with the fact that originally, the plan was that it was supposed to last for four gruesome days, only, it just lasted a day. Hence, what I was able to learn (minus the parts I dozed off) was very very minimal.

Yesterday, we went for breakfast at McDonnalds which was really nice since we left really early so when we got there it was still cool and there was barely anybody there. I had my usual Sausage and Egg McMuffin and he had Filet O' Fish. By the time were done, it was still early so we decided to go watch a movie at OU. When we got there we booked a ticket and burned off some time walking around goofing off with the kids toys before the movie started. The movie, Hells' gate, was serious lame. I could hardly pay any attention to it.

After the movie, he said he needed to find some shirts (baju cikgu) for practicum. Honestly I didn't know it could be so hard looking for mens clothes. I mean, we were looking for something that was formal, through not too flashy or expensive. Not baju jalan. He liked stripes but we remember our male school teachers wearing plain most of the times. Some stripes were too large, some were too small and made you dizzy if you looked at them too long. The ones with boxes looked kind of queer but the small boxes were okay a little. And then there was the issue of colours. He went for darker tones while I liked seeing him in softer ones like white. When I told him about a theory I heard about men wearing purple being gay, everywhere we looked it was, gay, gay, dark gay, light gay, gay gay, and even more gay. And then, looking at price tags, even after discounts the numbers seemed absurd.

While scouting around each store only did we realize how many other things we needed to buy really. There were bags & shoes (for us both), ties & trousers (for him), baju kurung & tudung (for me). He had basic household appliances to buy for a house he hasn't even found yet, and we both will need to buy stationary for our AVA's, books for revision, and a trusty organizer to plan and organize our next few hectic months.

There were things to plan like how we would be going to school- If the other teachers wouldn't kick up a fuss about us driving to school together. I had to learn may way around Klang, and the route back home to Bkt. Jelutong and to campus for term paper consultation. We had to familiarize ourselves with the area, the traffic in the mornings, which shop would have the best photocopying services, cheapest places to eat and where we could go to buy our school supplies.

All that in less than a month, minus days with classes, term paper consultaions, assignments, tests, and finals, we've only got roughly a week. It's a depressing thought I have chosen to avoid for some time thinking, never mind, we'll find some time... but when there's barely one week left when you minus off those hectic days, I'm really starting to get restless. I have NO idea where to start.

Ever since foundation, I have been so eager to go to school and teach for real. I've always felt like I was made to teach. pfft. yeah right! I was so eager and I had so much passion back then. Somewhere along the four years I've been here, that got killed off, slowly. Now, I think I'm just not ready yet. How can anybody be ready yet? I know it's time for me to toughen up and grow up. Life is not always going to be rainbows and butterflies for me. I'm not always going to have my friends with me, though I wish they were. Its so strange how life works, you want something and you wait and wait and feel like it's taking forever to come. Then it happens and its all over and all you want to do is just curl back up in that moment before things changed.

So anyway, we finally ended up in Padini which was having a sale and managed to grab 2 striped shirts for around RM100++. One grey and one light blue. I think he looks very handsome in them :)

After that, we walked around a while just looking at some kasut cikgu for me. It's really tough finding black pumps that won't hurt your feet, and don't look too nerdy or to stripper-ey (if there is such a word). I did find a few, but I don't think I was really in the mood to try anything on just yet at that time. I was kind of feeling annoyed at the fact that I had so many other things to buy and get done for practicum and we just didin't have enough time.

We decided to just go for lunch at Charms after that. I love charms. I love their Lamb Charmer which comes flaming at your table on a little bed of coal and you have to turn it to make sure it doesn't burn. It comes with a portion of yummy garlic rice too. Our meal was just divine. Omg I just love lamb! After lunch we walked round some more looking for Silver Wrapping paper that Ede ordered, Fossil because I wanted to have a look at their bags (but we never found the store), and Sticky Candy. I bought a bottle of Watermelon which tasted delish and looked awfully cute! We bought  box of Tako Tao and a cup of peppermint flavoured bubble tea and headed off home.

We were out from 7.30am to 7.30pm. Exactly12 hours. That's half an entire day. Thank you for taking me out, for spending time with me and not being tired off me, I had so much fun:D I hope the next three months goes well for us both. I hope it goes well for my other friends too. I love you guys to death and hope this isn't the end for us, just a new (better) beginning :)

If only we’d live for the moment, If only we learn how to change..