i have to go now. to go and grow up.

Ok I know I haven't been updating for quite a while but the truth is, I don't think I could ever find enough words to describe the past few weeks. Talking about it, would mean summing up the whole four years in that God forsaken place that- hard as it is to admit- I've grown a peculiar yet very much true and genuine fondness for.

I don't know where to start but I guess I've just been having the time of my life. Going out for movies, lamb chops, squishing in a car to go for seafood by the sea and awesome steamboat and grill, karaoke-ing my lungs out with the babes, teman-ing nana to find a house, teman-ing my partner to find his teacher shoes. got to try vegetarian food which surprisingly is delicious enough that I wouldn't mind committing the rest of my life to vegetables if I didn't have to sacrifice all my hair for it.

There have been a few downs too, lets not forget. The down do make up the memories too. There was that time when we went to pay our school a visit. Things went okay actually. The PK HEM was really nice to us. I liked it that he said he didn't like his teachers to be stressed out and all and prefered them to be relaxed, but then again he did say he was going to be exposing us to a load of new things, just so we could learn. That's good too I suppose. Thats what practicum is for anyways, to learn from experience, but I just got a little worried like I always do about these things. As soon as I got home, I called people, hoping someone had the right words to say to make me feel okay. 

And then there were the tired days where I was literally dragging my legs over the place doing this and that and getting things done with eyebags big enough to be my pillows under my eyes. It felt like everything was moving so fast and I was barely catching up. It was as if the world was pushing me to get up and move on and change and all that and all I wanted to do was to just lay in bed all day, lamenting the last few days I had left. I just wanted to spend quality time with my friends but practicum and tests and assignments and exams all got in the way.

This post was intended to be longer. Like I said, I have so much more left to say, just not enough time. Today is saturday. I've been busy all day making a mess sorting and packing my stuff for tomorrow, and that had to be interrupted with a few guests sleeping over so I had to clean up the mess. There was also a wedding Mum made me go to so I didn't get to go shop for the stuffs I'll be needing. Bleurgh. Tomorrow will be helluvaday. Getting stuff I need from Giant in the morning, then moving in in the afternoon. Then it'll be cleaning up in the evening and the tedious job of unpacking and rearranging everything so it'll get comfy enough to call home for the next few months. At night, its the mental preparation time. How will I ever feel ready enough to face 30 maybe 40 something pair of eyes belonging to kids waiting to shred me to pieces.

oh well, wish me luck. I'm gonna need tonnes and tonnes of it!

 my nerdy teacher shoes look very much like this but why don't they look nerdy here!!

at the end of the day you can either focus on whats tearing you apart or whats holding you together.