I'll never forget.

Maybe you're not in our photos anymore, but you're right, it doesn't matter. Because you know what... you'll always be in our hearts. Always.

Did I ever tell you, that after you left, things were never the same again? We became a little bit more famous than not at all. Strangers, people who never gave us a second glance would come up to us asking about you. They'd tell us they miss you. How strange. But they didn't know you, not the way that we do. They didn't miss you they way we did. There wasn't some giant hole in their hearts carved by sadness and despair like the ones we have in our hearts.

When you left, I cried the hardest I think. Ok, I don't think it's fair to say I cried the hardest because maybe someone out there cried even harder. Hehe.. but hell, I cried hard, real hard. It's weird how the distance made us closer though, don't you think? So maybe it's fair to say we should in some weird way love the distance. But oh how I hate it too sometimes. I hate how you're not close enough to finish the peanuts in my nasi lemak, or run back home with me in the pouring rain to get my notes, I hate how you're not there waiting for me anymore in front of Maccy Dee's, or having lunch with me at Subway in our favourite spot right at the back of the restaurant. I hate how I've got one person less to rant all day to about the stupidest things, annoying lecturers, weird people, or silly fights, and how when I can't sleep at night, you're not there lying next to me anymore. I hate how you're not gonna be there to hug me when the next guy leaves me, and most of all, I hate how I miss all of this. These silly little things that make even the distance envy our tie because it knows it can't so much as even scratch it, let alone sever it.

But I love how you've made an effort to stay. You were always there when I needed you. Always. You were the first to call in the midst of my break down when my dad was in the hospital. You we're there when I failed my driving test TWICE, and there when I passed the third time. You were there when I had too much to handle with the tests and assignments and what not, and there when I thought my ex had a new girlfriend, or when I was all hyped that my crush talked to me for the first time, and when I cried because I though he was leaving. You were always there.

Have I ever told you how much I miss you. Even though it may not seem that way sometimes because I hardly ever tell you. And when I do, it  may not sound like I mean it. And sometimes, I come back and I hardly have time to talk to you. But you know I'll always make time to tell you everything. Sometimes I have so much to say that I forget everything. It's frustrating. Because when the stuff happens, I already have, rehearsed in my head the words I wanna tell you, and I tell myself, you're gonna laugh when you hear about this one, or, you'll be as pisses as I am when I tell you about this...  I don't want you to miss a thing, inevitable as it may seem. But I just want you to know, that you'll always be a part of all this, and I don't want you to ever forget that.

I can never be half the friend you are to me, and to the rest of us. And though I may not have always been there for you before (which to that I am truly sorry for), but I hope to always be there in the future.

Yeah, friends forever ;)

P.s: I really need you right now :'(

"Every now and then we find a special friend, who never lets us down, who understands it all, reaches out each time you fall, you're the best friend that I've found."  

-Jordan Hill , Remember Me This Way